Bike or not

Tim wanted me to drop off a payment at the bank in St. Albans. Beautiful day so I took my bike (still waiting for that one more, nice ride). Got a mile up the road and about froze my ass to the seat. Turned around and got my car.....maybe another day. Can't stop crying all the time. Not sure if I feel sadder for me or my family...probably both. Mom and Tim say I need to get out more insteading of cooping myself up in the house, all alone everyday. Not much of a life I agree, but feel like I'm living in Limbo.