Friday, October 30: Dentist

One of many dental appointments this morning. They were going to do a root canal but I told them to just pull it......root canal=$255 or extraction=$90. Time in the dentist chair with novacaine=20-30 minutes, without novacaine=15 seconds. I opted for no novacaine. Maybe a mistake, I passed out from the pain....lol.

Oh yeah, Joe called earlier this morning. He kind of, in his own way, apologized for last night. He asked more questions about what I was going through and what I still had to go through. I tried to explain everything to him, but it got to a point where I think he couldn't follow it....can you say "short attention span"?

I picked up Matt at Melissa's and headed back to Newport. Bri was at mom and dad's. We visited for awhile, talked about Joe and Buddy's lack of understanding. My parents are so "with-it" when it comes to everything....why can't everyone else be?

Dan and I have been sort of emailing now. I had emailed him the other day about his lack of interest in the fact that I have cancer:

Between Dan Monfette and You

Michelle Lamothe October 29 at 9:52am
Just sitting here thinking.....in all this time that I've known about my cancer, I haven't heard a single word from you. Why is that? Just hurts bad to think that you don't care that I'm dying. :-(

Dan Monfette October 29 at 10:31am
No actually I think about it all the time, however I know very little about what is going on with you because mom and dad don't say to much about it because I think they don't feel comfortable telling me much because it's not really their place to. And you have to admit lately there have been a great deal of secrecy when it comes to your personal life (which I do not have a problem with). but if you want to have a serious talk about something then by all means feel free to call me. I just am not into facebooking or emailing. I'm sitting infront of a computer all day and when I get home the last thing I want to do is spend more time in front of a computer writing.:-(

Michelle Lamothe October 29 at 10:45am
I have stage 2 inverted popplyoma, lyme disease, mrsa,tmj(tmd). I'm on more meds than I can keep track of and have treatments 3 days a week at FAHC. My next surgery is November 13 at FAHC. I am in severe pain (bone pain) most of the time and it's an effort to even get out of bed, let alone get in a car. I usually sleep about 17 hours a day and spend my "free" time puking. So, that's my life in a nutshell. God's punishment for doing horrible things in my life I guess. As far as my personal life goes.....mom, dad, the kids, and tim are it. I lead a pretty boring life now. I'm proud of you Dan and your accomplishments with your music. As my fingers are numb most of the time now, I haven't been able to play my keyboard. Takes me forever to type cause I have to make sure my fingers are hitting the right keys cause I can't feel them. Keep your music going, you sound great! Love your sis.

From: dmonfette@charter.net (dmonfette@charter.net)
Sent: Fri 10/30/09 7:01 AM
To: nekmom@hotmail.com
Michelle,Are you serious!! that song kicks ass!! That is 100 times betterthan anything I've done. I want to hear more :) Hey if you ever needsomeone to record a guitar solo for you (hint, hint) just let me know. YeaSam had a 3 month battle with MRSA. She ended up having surgery to removethe source of the infection and then they treated her with high powerantibiotics. She was finally able to rid herself of it and her last checkupearlier this month came back MRSA free. She can definetly understand howyou feel. She was pretty much disabled by it, constant pain. She to wasinitially being treated by a doctor who made her worse and finally shefound one who knew how to handle it. Thats when the decided she neededsurgery thank God. It was quite an ordeal.